It is something in your mind . You think that it is your upbringing and you are setting up a wall. You are your own person and you don’t have to be like your mum or dad in a relationship. There are enough good examples in your life of your friends parents that you can concentrate on. Think about how they make their relationship work. You can see the genuine interest and love they show towards each other. Work on your own personality. Be a real and genuine friend. Respect women and treat them with dignity. Learn to look after yourself well. Kn9w how to clean and tidy up , wash your clothes and iron them, cook a meal. In this way you can bring something valuable to a relationship and family. Relationships are build on trust, care , friendship and love. You can bring these things into a relationship, I am sure. Think about what kind of a husband you want to be. Can you be a provider ? If you feel you can at the moment, work on it. Be serious in your planning, your work ethic and saving. Can you communicate well ? Learn to take an interest in other people. Their feelings and emotions, their hobbies and interests. Don’t think it will be too difficult. It is definitely possible to improve on yourself. Before you know it you will find someone who’s compatible with you and you will be able to bring something good to the relationship . Look around you are learn from others . You can be different from your parents because it is up to you.