I feel...so disgusted with myself? I don't know how to apologize after all these years?
Last night, on the night of my wedding, I came to terms that I am a bully and I've treated one of my family members horribly for years.
This family member is my cousin. Myself, a long with several others have bullied her for no good reason. I allowed my friends to harass and mentally abuse her simply because I always thought she was a bit on the weird side, and when I was younger, I don't know why, but I hated anything that made me uncomfortable. Like, hated with a passion. I used to laugh at her pain and...yeah. I think you get it.
Last night was my wedding and although I didn't invite her, she stopped by to drop off a gift for me. She said she's sorry she didn't get to give to me sooner (no I didn't invite her to my bridal shower or bachelorette party either).
I opened it when she left and it was a scrapbook of pictures she'd taken through all the years and they were just of me and my friends from past birthday parties and stuff. And all of the ones I know she was in, she cut herself out of.
All throughout my own wedding I was thinking about this. And when I woke up, I felt nothing but years of guilt.
I don't know what to do. I spent my entire wedding feeling like crap for her. What do I do? How do o apologize?