Is it really wrong or messed up to enjoy torturing bugs?
But sometimes I can't help playing around with or torturing bugs. At work I would get REALLY annoyed at flies buzzing around, so I'd take a cup lid and trap them so they couldn't fly. One day I was moving it around and watching the fly get tossed and turned. Today at work I trapped a bug under a cup, and used the rounded bottom to decapitate it. It was fascinating...its antenna kept moving and was moving the head around...I don't know why I enjoy it so much. I find it fascinating to watch how bugs will act, relying on instinct and how their bodies respond to death situations differently than us. I don't know WHY. I feel like Josef Mengele. I feel disgusting for finding it fascinating. And I know that torturing helpless creatures is one of the many signs of antisocial personality disorder and frankly that just makes me feel sick.
I don't do this often, but when the opportunity arises I take full advantage of it. Is this messed up or what? I hate it.
Hence my mention of antisocial personality disorder, smart one.