I had a dream about my ex bf & now miss him a lot?

I broke up with my bf of 5 years about 5.5 months ago & now have a new bf who lives with me. I still miss my ex a lot & feel like i'm grieving his death, though i'm the 1 who broke up with him. lately i'm thinking & dreaming about him alot & know I still love him, but am in relationship with the new... show more I broke up with my bf of 5 years about 5.5 months ago & now have a new bf who lives with me. I still miss my ex a lot & feel like i'm grieving his death, though i'm the 1 who broke up with him. lately i'm thinking & dreaming about him alot & know I still love him, but am in relationship with the new guy & he loves me alot. I hurt my ex by breaking with him, & know we can never get back together due to my stupidity & indeciveness. I like/love the new bf too, but that spark of deep love isn't there. i tried listening to my heart, rereading my journal to remember why i broke up with the ex, but still feel like i did the most stupid thing i could've ever done with my life by losing my ex. now there is no going back, only forward but i'm having a hard time moving on. when i go for days without thinking about my ex i'm ok, but then something will happen & i can't get him out of my head for days. i think its just nostalgia & wanting those feelings back again, but i can't shake it
Update: I know i should move on, & not contact my ex because that would be too mean to him, & i know i moved in too soon with the new bf, but what am i going to do to help myself out of this hole i am in? Its driving me crazy & i am really moody these day, wanting to cry nearly every day. i saw an old picture of us and... show more I know i should move on, & not contact my ex because that would be too mean to him, & i know i moved in too soon with the new bf, but what am i going to do to help myself out of this hole i am in? Its driving me crazy & i am really moody these day, wanting to cry nearly every day. i saw an old picture of us and wanted to cry because i missed us so bad, but we are no more. he was such a great guy, and i broke up with him because i was worried about so much stuff, but i have hurt him beyond repair and need to forget him, and have him forget me too. I am just going crazy i guess... any suggestions?
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