I ve had a lot of bad experience with guys in my life, right to the point where I m kinda... scared to date. I m straight, and I ve always LIKED guys. I m not trying to be sexists, but I want to know if my thinking is rationally or created by fantasy and movies.
Men that respect you and your personal space, that are very gentle and caring. Won t force stuff upon you (aka, sex or kissing), understanding of your emotions when you tell him, he can also be dominant in certain situations, but also very laid-back?
I dunno if I described it right... truthfully I ve been used a lot and hurt a lot. I ve learned not to give my heart away as easily either or trust so easily as well. I ve been touched and physically assaulted by men (not raped).
I had an ex boyfriend who once said to me: "Hey kiss me." And although he was playing, it triggered what had happened before with a man, and I had 3 massive anxiety attacks on our first date.
Next day, he dumped me after saying it was okay to have a weakness, and saying he ll never leave me.
I know douchebags exist regardless of gender, but it feels like I always attract these type of men, and it makes me wonder, do GOOD and KIND patient men really... really exist? Or do they have darker motives?
I m only 18, I still don t have a lot of experience in the world yet. I m sorry if this offended anyone, but that wasn t my intention. I m just frightened.